Remember remember

Someone said "Alan Chen?" that keeping a journal to create memories for important events are beneficial to you, especially if you want to recall information very fast-something he said his employers really liked. And it was very impressive, even though he had an accent and sometimes couldn't formulate sentences very well, when he said this and snapped his fingers.

Today, I pulled an all-nighter. I didn't want to, but when I saw it was inevitable, my productivity slipped. My midterm paper was so horrible haha I'm sure even a high schooler would make much more coherence than what I threw out there. wow. I'm concerned a little because it doesn't make any sense, and the topics seemed easy enough (after I understood them) anyway, and I didnt' cite some sources correctly. Haha, me in the kitchen is not a good idea. I just ate alot of things in the kitchen, and more and more and more, without ceasing... And even after hours and hours, nothing really cropped up. I realized i was having trouble composing because I had no idea where i was going with my paper. Usually, I always do, however, this time, it was just like, oh this is good evidence. this too. add this. um. where is this supposed to go? I felt like solving ... or more like constructing ... a rubix cube puzzle. Well, I went to class of course, sat in the back, and looked over what I had to prepare for my second essay, and seeing that it was short in length, allowed myself to take out my notes. However, I kept nodding off and I wrote alot of scribbles in place of my notes ... no matter how hard I tried. finally, it was over, I awoke to a stream of students filing out the door, some looking at me. I rushed to my Stats class, the air did me some good, I dozed off less in Stats. In stats we continued our discussion of Probability, everything seemed to make much sense to me, She overwent the things we learned the previous day, giving us the formulas of (1-p(notbeingthere)) and P(A)xP(B) for associations (also to watch out for those which were interdependent) for the problems that were to become very messy. Some of the examples she gave I could not follow along, I remember her continuing to give examples using cards and being able to replace them, and other not being able to replace them. The second half of the lecture, she warned was difficult, at this i awakened, wanting to figure out the puzzle, the challenge she was to pose at us, and see if it really was so hard to figure out. But honestly, I don't think she should have made such a big deal about it, because I understood what she was teaching perfectly. 1/5 and 1/5 the chances are the same even if the card is the third card in the deck. oh, if only my homework reflects what i learn! I really wanted to get straight 3's! For MCB, I think we learned about more poisons, or more things that can block Sodium gated channels. 6 of them in different colors, in different names, shown different structures, and I think we were supposed to memorize them. I remember squiggles on my notes ... hahahah I had fallen asleep while I was writing down my notes. But I still don't really know what happened in MCB... it looked important.
Afterwards, I decided to go to the library to work on my essay, yes, read and write the thing two hours before it was due. I think it was at 3:42 when I finally ran out of there, down to Computer Facility, thinking I couldn't make it, but when I got there, I realized i did have a chance before it closed at 4. The computer was so laggy, every second counted, then the thing wouldn't print, I had to double side print it, staple it, and run off with it in my hand. I was so lucky the building was close to the computer facility. Took the elevator, went up, tried to find the office and right before the man posted something and before the door closed behind him, I caught it. he turned looked at me and said we're closed, I hesitated, because I thought he would take my paper, and after a moment, he said where do I put this in? relieved i told him my classroom's number, and went out of there. I came home, exhausted, went on the computer a bit and looked at health videos and my emails just because. I made myself dinner and tackled at length with Natalie, who took an interest in helping me find a good summer class and who I shared my rice with. I then decided to go to CALUPHC's Internship Night. I was a little late, but i ran, got there, met Marvin and remet Jayanti, because I guess I looked so horrible she didn't recognize me. Rebecca told me that if I look on the listserve or something, I'd be able to look at some internships from Kaiser, Pfsizer, etc. the application for them, she told me, was due in a month. Her focus was either Epidemeology or Infectious Diseases. I thought how she said it was that we weren't closer friends. Cu we didn't have much to talk about--something was just off with me today, I guess. perhaps people were turned off by my ugliness. Anyways, the internship thing then got rolling with caitlin reintroducing the club, their activities, and i guess, some advice on internships. Then we had our speaker come out and talk, he looked like someone I knew. He said he was an MCB major, and a public policy minor and during his first years got connected in many clubs then dropped the ones he didn't like. He recommended checking out everything which really appealed to me because I sincerely want to do everything. He was in a premed frat and explained that he had been in suitcase clinic, and that somehow he got involved with the American Association of Lung ... and basically how he resurrected a group that was dying by committing himself to Oakland schools and teaching them about asthma and how to take care of it. because he explained, interestingly, where urban societies are supposed to contribute to less asthma, the opposite has been happening in Oakland, which incidentially has one of the nation's largest percentages of asthma. He and forty others have been going around schools providing information and has also been providing cheaper medical supplies that is used in conjunction with asthma mask. He was very happy. And through Oakland kicks Asthma, he started to apply to internships near the Eastern states and Washington. Even though he was competing against those who had interned with congress men, he said that when interviewed, he used anecdotes and they were able to sense his passion as well as his strong ability to recall information very fast, which was a great skill indeed ... (and something I also want to have). He got a position, and was very surprised when he learned that he got a very goood position, a head of something. And because of his position, he got to attend meetings in Congress when they were discussing health reform; and during coffee breaks he got to meet his heroes, the people he learned about in school! wow! I mean, I only felt that once, when i was walking down the hall of Barrows, gaping in wonder at the names framed on each of the doors as those were the same names that were the author of the amazingly groundbreaking papers in the realm of sociology ... and my own realm of reality! Anyways, that was his next advice, he got to talk with these eminaries~ and he got to establish a network. I think that was it for advice. It was so crazy to hear him speak, I was just half the time staring in wonder at the guy. dang. can I do that?
The next bit was the officers introducing themselves and telling us what job experience or internship position or research position they had in the past. And wow, hearing them made me think dang, they are really good at this. They are very proactive, they really commit themselves, and they enjoy it. really, I feel like I'm in the land of eminaries already, no need to go to Harvard or Washington. So, I have decided to look at the resources they gave me and also pursue a research position or an internship even though I do not feel qualified at all.
Minute Maid Pomegranate tea is amazing. I'll have to buy it in my Safeway run.
Lisa gave me tips and so did Marvin, They told me to go for URAP, HIRP, check out list serves, go to PH116, and i also plan to make Public Policy a minor as well! If its possible! I'm growing increasingly excited for it. :) As for the sciences, I want to take BIO 1A soon so I can take upper div bio classes! the hard sciences are calling for me! I want to KNOWWWW how things work in the moelcular level, and also how society works, etc. I wonder which field I will choose. :) But first things first, :)
The lessons learned today: don't waste your body :(
don't waste food :(
don't procrastinate even though you think you aren't...
Keep on persisting! send applications ! one of them are bound to come back! >:D
fight on!
if you are interested, passionate in something, send a letter, put yourself out there!

early to bed and early to rise makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise.

Now, i'm going to make a todo list. and sleeeeepppppppp

:) Tomorrow is mine!