Beginning Phase!

HEllOOOooO!!
Haha I'm super excited~!!! So many things to share... and they're actually some GOOD things to say too!! ^_^

Well, let's start with the base of my concerns, which was... eating.
The whole poor diet thing.
Well, on Saturday (it Feels SOOO FAR AWAY!), I went to the market and bought a whole lot of food. The person I went with, who drove me there, was probably thinking OMG what a pig what a moneywaster!
Usually I don't ever buy much food but this time I forced myself. I didn't even buy peanut butter!
And since then, I've been eating only really healthy things. And... with less portions. I have seriously been treating myself like a patient! okay protein, don't wanna eat carbs again, fiber and veggies....

And I was really happy to see myself losing weight! ^____^
haha
oh but that kinda failed yesterday, when our small group went to Oakland to Taco Truck... and we had the Authentic Mexican tacos and burritos and drinks. mm And then after that we had cake pops, ice cream and cookies...of which I ate the most. couldn't stop myself! I was hungry?
And today I looked at the stupid scale thing... and I was back to where I started from! all that weight that was lost =[
and then today, i woke up late (cuz I came back from small group really late and couldn't sleep til 4/5) and I ran to class, without breakfast.... Finally when my break came at 12:30 I made myself this huge, freaking healthy lentil soup with oats, carrots, onions, beans, broccoli, green peppers... hahahahaha XD but then ... it tasted ... so bland. something wasn't right. Like usually I would gulp down the whole thing... but I don't know what was missing!!! I really hope I find out the thing that was missing... Anyways, I ate alot of that... and had to go to class again, but found myself Still hungry... anyways i came home and ate another super lot of food. i had chocolate and peanut butter today too ...
=P I was just so scared today...like WTHECK is wrong with my body? I ate a lot but why am I still hungry?... i think it has to do with ... last night and my pants? hm

Well, schoolwise...
i'm OKAY. I'm very proud of myself for doing my stats hwk really early and checking every answer with my GSI. I better get a 3 this time!!!!
Trying to catch up in my other classes in terms of reading. Wow I'm so old now, its hard to remember stuff!
I have a midterm due already! =[ It looks so hard... because its an upper div soc class... argghh I hope I can do it! Due next Thursday

Small group

All the girls are wonderful (of course), I hope I can open up to them! And I hope they don't think I'm weird! .... They all enjoy shopping and eating really bad food! Which is not like me (I just like eating everything) And they all look like they're super close friends with each other. But here I shouldn't be thinking about me right? But how I can share my love with them. Or be a friend to them. Cuz that ... would always displace my fears.

Valentine's Day

I wanted to do something with my roomies for Valentine's day... but I'm also super busy this weekend to actually prepare something (except now..........)
And also send my brother something? Dunnnnnnooo.

Every day this week... I read the bible and prayed a little bit. The first few days I hardly ever thought of the Q.T. but now they seem a little bit more deeper.
When i find myself in Him, I am deeply at peace.

The battle continues.
May God give me more understanding of Him and have my mind wholly so I may
not sin against Him.
Eternal Perspective.

Lots of stuff planned for the rest of the week.
I can do it! =]