I failed.
was so tired today.
and am so tired today too.
got home after class... from 9:30 a.m. - 3:00 p.m. no breaks.
but the 12:30-2:00 sight singing class was fun...even though I'm not taking it for credit.
And i have a lot to read =] but didn't get that done.
haha
Instead, I got home, after buying a slice of pizza, watched the documentary Sicko, and then proceeded to eat a lot more, watched and read the State of the union Speech, and then nigahiga's dancing video caught my eye. haha Afterwards, I just read a book I was actually supposed to... even though the report for it is due next week instead of this week.... =]
So I still have things to get done.
let's see...

• reader for Soc T_T this is the most reading i have to do... and its 2 weeks worth of reading because i didn't really know that we were supposed to read the first week.but i guess its still my fault. I just wish I could take my time drinking in all the readings ya know? Instead of having to rush skim through every one of them (which I suck at) and write a really thoughtful response towards it (hwk).
• MCB 180 report due on Friday. I could get it done real fast, but I take a long time, and like to take a long time writing, editing, rewriting, etc. . . so starting faster is the way to go.
• Statistics hwk due tomorrow. yikes! its due at 6 but still! I'm half done but I like to be completely 100% of my answers because there are no answers provided and we're graded on them! I can't have the 2nd hwk assignment be the dropped assignment!
  
• psychology... just read! and review notes and stuff!
  
• right now i haven't been reading that much for all my classes because all the subject material have been overlapping each other! It's crazy. Brain and Behavior with Psychology, then Psychology with Statistics... sometimes I get really confused because they focus on different things, though the same material. and i always get cocky and give half a ear to stuff i already know... and its kinda like review for me... oh i know this i think and am tempted to tune out. but i know i shouldn't... and i'm always surprised at how much i've forgotten. :)

And then... there's the eating and exercising.

tomorrow's a new day.

today:
pizza
cereal + milk (2) = 400
oatmeal = 250
bread 45 cal. - 3 = 135
bread 120 cal. - 1= 120
pita 320 cal. - 1 = 320
peanut butter = 500?
cornbread =500?
nutribar =180?
peanuts
hummus
...

this was my dinner .
i always feel like i'm a poor person or something.
like because this is such bad food, i'm going to eat something more?
And i've been noticing that I react negatively towards people doing better than me. which is Great, because they're being healthy, getting themselves out there, getting jobs, etc. ... passed a class i couldn't.
but i guess i feel jealous. and i know i don't need to be. i know i can too.
haha throughout this post, I'm being really positive. I usually don't talk to myself this lightly in reality.

but anyways,
and then there's also my friends ... and church...
should I attend FICB? like all week, my heart screamed for fellowship, the intimacy that only brothers and sisters of Christ can provide, the growing-together feel, the discussing-about what was preached...or how we're trying to incorporate . no live out faith in our lives...
the sound of my peers praying...
was sooooo sweet to my ears.

that one time.

i'm scared of ... perhaps not fitting in, just the laborious task of getting to know everyone and putting myself out there and doing my best... but I think that I will do it.
:)

Smile.
*oh! wish me luck tomorrow!*